Absolutely! Everyone with Follicular Lymphoma is different and even someone who usually keeps their feelings tightly in check can find that they experience a rollercoaster of emotions following a cancer diagnosis. This is especially true if you didn’t have any symptoms beforehand.
There is no limit to the number of emotions that you might experience, or the order in which you might experience them. The feelings you have may be short-lived or last for weeks or months. It’s also normal for them to change considerably over the course of your Follicular Lymphoma journey. Initially, many people experience anxiety and fear not knowing what the future might hold, especially if you have children or other people who rely on you.
During periods of treatment, many people go into what is sometimes called ‘warrior mode’. This is where they channel all their thoughts and energies into fighting their disease and they may seem unwaveringly positive and upbeat. However, after treatment ends, they may experience a sudden dip in their moods as the enormity of what they have been through hits them.
Some medicines, especially steroids like prednisone, can amplify the ups and downs of your feelings as well.
Some people also experience something called ‘scanxiety’ which refers to the fear and apprehension that can accompany preparing for tests and waiting for test results. This can even manifest in physical symptoms including stomach pain, nausea, breathlessness, dizziness, sweating and rapid heartbeat.
It’s completely normal for your emotions to be all over the place, just try to take each day as it comes.